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Wednesday, December 12, 2012


And I'm back. You see I get these rigid ideas in my head that things have to be a certain way and if they don't happen the way I think they should I just don't do it at all. This is what's happened with my blog. I had a very clear idea of what I wanted to do with this site and when I couldn't meet my own ideal I just gave up. So, instead of promising to post a specific number of posts on specific days I'm just going to post when I can about whatever comes to mind. I had to remind myself this is my blog and it can be whatever I'd like it to be. I can post about whatever I want. And by no means has anyone demanded anything of me...all of this has been some internal demand I set on myself.

With all of that being said...Hi! It's nice to see you again! Or if this is your first time here...Welcome! I've gone through some changes over the past couple of months. When I finished school I hit a slump. The more jobs I applied to (and didn't hear back from) the more I spiraled down into depression. If it wasn't for being a mother and HAVING to get up and get the kids off to school I wouldn't have left my bed. It wasn't until a friend pointed out that I hadn't accepted my new role in life that I could finally take a good look at my life and see what was really going on.

This year I've gone from student to unemployed to getting a casual position at a residential women's treatment center. So, now I'm home during the week and work weekends. Now, did you catch what I said? From student to unemployed. Really? Unemployed? Not once did I look at the fact that I GRADUATED from my program. I wasn't unemployed! I was a graduate looking for a job in the field AND I found one that I started mid-August. Yet, it took me until a couple of weeks ago to fully realize this. I finally stopped and asked myself, "Why did I start this process of changing careers?" My answer was simple. I wanted to help people. More specifically I wanted to help women with addictions. Am I doing this? Yes! Does it matter if I work 44 hours per week or 24? No! With that in mind I took it a step further. In a few years when my kids hit the teen years I'll be begging for more time with them and yet here I sit with time to spend with my children. I know a lot of parents who would love to be at home with their kids. I made a conscious decision to try to ENJOY my children more. (Okay I'm not completely ridiculous they STILL drive me crazy every day.)

Each family has it's own balance and when something changes the family needs to restructure itself. This is known as homeostasis. My family's balance had changed with or without my acceptance. Accepting my new role just allowed my mind a sense of peace.

I hope to write more often now that I've come to all of these realizations. Have a great day!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh and guess what?? I'M A GRADUATE! I have a diploma in Addictions and Community Service Worker.

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1 comment:

    I am sure you inspire a lot of women out there Elle!Keep up the good thoughts and work. Love you
    Love Mom


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