Setbacks

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Setbacks. Failure. Excuses. We've all gone through it, over and over again. We all have our demons. So, I've been counting calories since March 1st and exercising regularly since March 7th. Things have been going really well, until this weekend. I haven't given up, but I want to admit my setback out loud so I can get back on track.

It started out with one bad day and ended up being 3 bad days. I do want to mention that even with my setback I did count my calories no matter how embarrassing it was to be honest and enter them.

So, I went out for dinner Friday and Saturday and I noticed that even though my meals were high in calories I did not eat all of the food put in front of me. To many of you that may not seem like a big deal but to those of you who are like me you'll understand why this feels like a win. I'm the type of person who feels like she has to eat what is put in front of her. I ate until I was full. Okay, obviously I wasn't perfect I did tell you this was a weekend of setbacks. I did eat the dessert and yes even though the chocolate explosion is over 800 calories and super bad for me I didn't finish it all either. Yes, I ate most of it, but anyone who knows me...knows I never leave ANY of the dessert no matter how full I am.

Saturday I really did try to be a good girl. I made sure I worked out really hard before going out and I came really close until exhaustion hit and I fell down in the dumps and had the extra ice cream. Today wasn't much better. I find it extremely difficult to manage impulse control when I've had an especially heavy period. I crave junk, junk and more junk.

Excuses.

Failure.

Setbacks.

This is why I'm writing this post. I am determined to get back on track. Tomorrow will be better. I've come this far. I've got a taste of the good life and I want more. I'm at the lowest weight I've been in years (233.4 at the beginning of last week). I want to feel what it's like to be in the 220s and then lower and lower.

So, this is me admitting Failure. Letting go of Excuses. Not giving in to Setbacks. Admit it and move on, move forward. Tomorrow is a new day. This week I'm going to focus on walking 5 km to start preparing for the Ottawa Marathon. I've yet to determine if I'll be walking or jogging, but that's why I'm starting to prepare now.

This is me...never giving up! I'll leave you with my favorite song of the day - Adele's Rolling in the Deep.