Procrastination

Good Morning.

So, I procrastinated today. I slept in till 5:50, did the dishes, cleaned up the kitchen, took out the recycling, and then left myself with about 10 minutes to read my bible.

Let me back up a little... I did fairly well with the eating yesterday, but I went to Wal-Mart to grab a couple of things we'd missed in school supplies. For the record this was the WORST idea ever. Never go to Wal-Mart the day AFTER Labor Day AND the first day of school! It was a mad house and not just there, but everywhere...add to that heavy rain and traffic...no fun. I really wanted Starbucks and went there after shopping. Traffic was insane, but I was all yea coffee, till I turned the corner through the drive through and saw the sign that said the debit machine was out. I waited and waited to get OUT of the drive through and decided I'd get money out at the RBC which is right beside Starbucks...waited and waited...and then parked too far from their weird messed up machine. So, I gave up and TRIED to go home, again with the traffic.

I got home and was in such a foul mood..no strike that I was ANGRY! I then gave the kids a bath together, cuz I wasn't in the mood for waiting around. I get all the kids to bed and of course they keep messing around. We went into the basement hoping that ignoring them would work...instead the kids kept coming down. I gave up and tried to go to bed myself, but I was NOT tired at 9 pm and that just made me angrier which led me to start thinking about ice cream. I then went on a mission to find said ice cream...two stores later I ate two giants cups of peppermint fudge crackle felt better AND worse.

OK, back to this morning. I procrastinated reading the bible because I knew I hadn't been feeling very Christ-like last night. I believe I even cursed out a few people while driving. Although, normally I just say screw it and eat whatever I want for the next week and completely ignore my bible. So, I'm happy to say that I'm still on track. I didn't read much, but I did read John 17. Here are the excerpts that stood out for me today:

³Now this is eternal life: that they may know you, the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom you have sent.

¹⁵My prayer is not that you take them out of the world but that you protect them from the evil one.

²²I have given them the glory that you gave me, that they may be one as we are one: ²³I in them and you in me. May they be brought to complete unity to let the world know that you sent me and have loved them even as you have loved me. 

I find it extremely hard fully believe I can be loved like that by God. I know it, but at times emotionally I can't believe it. From time to time I still wonder why my husband loves me or why my friends love me. Then I remind myself that if they didn't care, they wouldn't be in my life. So, I must be doing something right for all these people to care about me, especially people not related to me. 

They care about me for me not because they "have" to. There's a saying that blood is thicker than water. I find it's usually family that uses this term as a way to make one feel guilty. I've surrounded myself with my OWN family. The one I've chosen. There was a time my family and I weren't getting along and we had no contact. It was during this time that I found ways of surrounding myself with the family of my own choosing. The friends who're like sisters or brothers to me. 

My church became a big part of my family. These "strangers" have helped me (and now us) through so much. I'm eternally grateful for them and I'm eternally grateful to God for pushing me in the direction of Barrhaven Fellowship. I stood one day at the railway tracks on Jockvale Road debating between Barrhaven United and Barrhaven Fellowship. I'd already been to the United once and nothing really stood out there. So, with some urging from God I crossed the road and was greeted by the most amazing people who I'm proud to call my family. 

Wow, so not sure where that all came from today... See this is why blogging is good, stuff comes out that you weren't expecting.

I'll leave you with pictures I took of the kids yesterday.

Have a great day!